The days in this year seem to take forever. My hopes and dreams continue to be crushed, but I still carry on. The days I used to have were peaceful, now it is only stress, anger and frustration. I wonder why I’m still here. Then, I remember I was a “nice guy”. My actions have seemed to have caused me to be completely passed me over. Forgive the language but I am extremely angry. I do not know what to do. I do not know what to do. I do not know what to do. Please, God. If you’re there please hear my prayers and deliver me from this hell. I would do anything to get out of here, but every time I try, something new seems to happen. I cannot escape this “hell”. I put that in quotations because I feel most of the people I interact with(in a very strange way) have it worse than me. I am tired of pushing myself aside for the good of groups, cliques or any other malformed mob. These days must end!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
The days in this year seem to take forever. My hopes and dreams continue to be crushed, but I still carry on. The days I used to have were peaceful, now it is only stress, anger and frustration. I wonder why I’m still here. Then, I remember I was a “nice guy”. My actions have… Continue reading I really don’t like being here.<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/softwarebeach.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/36"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/softwarebeach.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/softwarebeach.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/softwarebeach.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/softwarebeach.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=36"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/softwarebeach.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/36\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":41,"href":"https:\/\/softwarebeach.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/36\/revisions\/41"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/softwarebeach.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=36"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/softwarebeach.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=36"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/softwarebeach.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=36"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}