The days in this year seem to take forever. My hopes and dreams continue to be crushed, but I still carry on. The days I used to have were peaceful, now it is only stress, anger and frustration. I wonder why I’m still here. Then, I remember I was a “nice guy”. My actions have seemed to have caused me to be completely passed me over. Forgive the language but I am extremely angry. I do not know what to do. I do not know what to do. I do not know what to do. Please, God. If you’re there please hear my prayers and deliver me from this hell. I would do anything to get out of here, but every time I try, something new seems to happen. I cannot escape this “hell”. I put that in quotations because I feel most of the people I interact with(in a very strange way) have it worse than me. I am tired of pushing myself aside for the good of groups, cliques or any other malformed mob. These days must end!